Online dating is like, the most awkward and annoying and difficult thing ever! Wow, I knew it was going to be tough, but I did not know it was going to be so awkward period I should have expected it. But I didn’t. And now, this is where I’m at. I’m not going to name any names, cuz that would be cruel and this city isn’t that big. But I will tell you what I’ve been through. Our relationship ending is always a difficult thing, but even in the most difficult breakup there’s still dislike, glimmer of hope, this thing that’s like “well what next?”…
That hope comma in my one week of online dating so far, is becoming more and more distant. The men that I’ve been on dates with are fine people, or they seem to be at least. Most of them have interesting careers. For example, I was on a date with a well-respected Raleigh chiropractor, and on another I would hang with with a highly-regarded intellectual in the area. What I’ve realized though, is that even though sometimes on the surface these connections make sense, chemistry doesn’t always make sense, and without chemistry, these dates sure are painful. There’s also this thing, with online dating, where you’re like
“… Okay, I realize I’m single too but… Why is he single?”
Ugh. I know that if I meet the right guy whether it’s through online dating or not, this will all this be a funny anecdote… For the most part at least. But, right now, it’s difficult to navigate and it seems like it would be a lot more easy to just give up and confide in Netflix, friends, and ice cream– a combination of the three sounds ideal… And I mean friends like real friends, not the program, which happens to be on Netflix, and which I have definitely… Not….. Already watched every season of… Twice.
So, that’s where I’m at. Things could be better, but they could be a lot worse too. I guess I just have to be grateful for what I have, and trust that the universe will bring me what I need.